My Ranking Points
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I heard the familiar sounds of the wolves howling and it was lunch! I dropped the potion I was unwilling having to put on my face and ran out of the uglification classroom before the teacher could do anything. I really didn’t like uglification. Nevers don’t have to be **** to be evil.
As I was running, I passed Xcil and waved at her, then found my seat in the shade next to Adrime and Elest.
“That was one awesome dash you made running from uglification, Jesimane,” Ardime laughed. I blushed and everyone laughed.
Suddenly, Darete walked up and cleared his throat.
“What’s up Darete?” I asked.
“Could I speak with you in private?” He asked.
“Sure,” I replied. We got up and walked to a tree at the back of all the students.
For a minute, he didn’t say anything and I realised he was staring at Xcilona.
“…You wanted to say something?”
“Oh! Yeah. Well, I don’t know how to say this but… I think I like Xcilona.”
I burst out laughing.
“What?” He asked.
That just made me laugh harder.
“Jesimane! Stop it!” He whined.
I took deep breaths and I finally calmed down.
“I’m sorry. It’s just… Everyone knows you like her! Apart from her, mind you.”
Darete looked so shocked I had to check that I hadn’t turned into a flying pig.
“W-what?” He stuttered.
He said something but I wasn’t listening. Something else had caught my eye.
It was Xcilona.
She had just walked up and kissed Harman on the cheek.
A strange feeling erupted inside of me and I gritted my teeth.
“Jesimane? Hellooooo?” Darete said in my face, making me come back to focus.
Darete rolled his eyes. “What should I do?”
“Do about what?”
“About liking-” His voice cut down to a whisper. “Xcilona.”
“Well, I think you should just go up to her and tell her how you feel. She would like that best,” I advised.
“Okay thank you so much!” Darete said, his face lit up with excitement as he ran over to the school as lunch was now over.
Oh god, what had I done.
“Xcilona-” He starts saying. I run up behind him and grab his mouth.
“Not now!” I hiss in his ear.
“Hey,” Harman starts in an unfriendly tone.
My tone darkens. “What.”
I look to the side of me as people start crowding around us. “Why?”
“Don’t mess with him.”
“I’m not messing with him. What are you talking about?”
“Back off, never. Don’t mess with my friend.”
I chuckle awkwardly. “Your friend? More like your *****.”
There are some oohs in the background.
“Well listen, never,” He says the word never as if it were something disgusting he might have found on the side of the road.
“If you’re going to argue with me, you might as well call me by my name,” I said bitterly.
“I don’t have time for this. Just mind your own business and stay away from my girl.”
I think I punched him. I didn’t care. At that moment I felt the most hate I’d ever felt in my life. Xcilona was not his girl. And I could stay as close to her as I wanted.
Harman stepped back, clutching his blood stained cheek, hearing the sound of the crowd’s gasps.
“She’s not your girl.”
“Oh yeah? Why did she tell me she liked me then?”
I took a step back. “She didn’t say that.”
“Really now? What did she do while we were talking then? When she said she loved me?”
“She didn’t do it!” I screamed.
Suddenly a streak of lightning struck Harman’s hand and he was flung back.
“Holy cr*p! What the heck did you do!” He screamed, clutching his now black hand.
He ran in and we started punching each other, hit after hit and we began fighting.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, I saw Xcilona and Darete rise up in the air and kiss.
No. Not again. I tried to control it but I couldn’t.
I screamed and a strike of lightning hit Darete, sending him motionless, toppling to the ground.
“Darete!” I heard Xcilona scream. “Oh Darete, please don’t leave me. I love you.”
I froze with those words.
The words I wanted to hear all my life given to some boy desperate for love.
Those words, made me run, run to who knows where.But to run away, away from this horrible situation.
I ran and ran, hearing the terrifying noises of the thunder and lightning, following behind me.
I don’t know where I was, but I was underneath a large tree in the blue forest, probably destroying everything in the forest with lightning. I couldn’t help it, I had never felt this much hate before. Well, I had never really felt hate before.
I started kicked the tree and started screaming. Why was this happening!? Why couldn’t I just be normal? What was wrong with me!
“Life!” I screamed, on each word kicking the tree. I screamed once again and said a bunch of words I probably shouldn’t have said. I summoned lightning and struck the tree again and again, each time thinking about a different time of the fight. I had only just calmed down when the worst came to me. I saw Xcilona kiss Darete, a loving, passionate kiss. I saw her telling him she loved him and it seemed to play again and again in my head.
“I love you.”
“I love you.”
“I love you.”
Again and again I heard it, until I couldn’t take it anymore. I fell to my knees and leaned against the tree. I cried and sobbed my heart out.
“Why?” I screamed. “Why can’t I just have the life I want! Why can’t life go the way I want it to go!”
I calmed down and silent streams of tears flooded out of my eyes. I watched as the sky turned dark and the stars came out. I didn’t go back to school; I couldn’t. Instead, I cried myself to sleep, the words ‘I love you’ haunting me at the back of my head.
“Hey,” A voice said, taking me from my sleep.
It was Xcilona.
I tried to glare but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even bare to see her face.
I expected her to shout at me, to tell me I was evil. Instead, she fell to her knees and burst out crying.
I instantly worried about her, but the words ‘I love you’ rang in my head and I stopped, thunder breaking her tears.
“You don’t have to cry. I’ll do it for you.” She said through her sobs. She put her arms around me into a hug. I shrugged her off.
“You can’t take back what you said. Nothing can.” I growled. I could tell she was hurt but I didn’t care.
“You don’t have to be mad all the time. Don’t force yourself.” Xcilona said angrily.
I stood up and walked away.
“The thunder tells me your mad!” She yelled.
“Go away!” I shouted back at her.
“You can’t keep denying me, I’ll always be here.”
“Just shut up and leave already! I told you, I don’t need you here!”
“You will never find love if you reject it and suspect it will come right back to you.” She whispered.
“I don’t need love. I just need myself! I don’t need you, or anyone. You’re just ruining my life. Just go!” I answered bitterly.
I heard footsteps heading away and quiet sobs but I didn’t look back, I never would.