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Over 4000 points now!
Woohoo one of the most exciting things on earth
*note the sarcasm*
Um anyways, hola spoes, how’s life going?
Congratulations! Life’s great! Yours? (Yes, I am at summer camp. Well, technically, I will be tomorrow morning. So you won’t hear from me for a while. I’m just sneaking on the site. Just not on Discord or Google Docs…)
That’s great! Mine’s going okay currently, although summer and quarantine is rather boring for me XD
(Ah, we’ll miss you on discord and the docs, I hope you have fun at summer camp!)
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This is for you guys- the Sneaky Snek Smoothie Squad Snekafia.
When I heard that the Snek friendversary was on (or at least somewhere around) June 25th, I wanted to do something, after all you guys have done for…[Read more]
Which isn’t sane at all. Leila, this is so amazing and I can’t thank you enough. I’m so emotional rn loam, I love y’all so much. Even at our worst, we are always the beautiful, amazing SSSSS!!!
Which isn’t sane at all.
Leilei… I am actually without words. I… wow. Beautiful.
WHICH ISN’T SANE AT ALL OH MY GOD I’M ABOUT TO CRY
i love y’all so so so much <3
…Which isn’t sane at all! This is absolutely beautiful Leilei! Jimboob the sloth is my favouriteeeeee!! I love you all so muchh <33
Which isn’t sane at all. Oh my gosh Lauren. That was beautiful. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. And to all the sneaky snekks, I love you all more than words can express. To the stars, my sisters ❤️
I… I don’t know.
But at the same time I’m not.
Like I want to smile.
Yet all I can do is stare at my phone, type this in, and try not to cry.
And to be honest I don’t even know what those tears would be.
Whether happy or sad.
I’m not sure.
I… I don’t know.
*I hug you*
Most of us aren’t, not all the time.
The world isn’t just yours to fix.
It really is painful, trying to figure out what you’re really feeling when you want tears and smiles all at once.
You’ll find a light someday, a ray through the clouds. This confusion can’t last forever, I promise.
Good days. The rarest of the rare. The days when things don’t even have to go right— as long as they don’t go wrong. Those are the happy ones. You’re stuck. We all are, sometimes. Pulled into a void, a void that makes you think that there’s no escape. But there is. The good days and the good moments and the good conversations. The gray side. *hu…[Read more]
This is the post for the results of the Trans Tuesday Poetry Contest!
Apologies for the delay, we wanted to make sure everyone had a chance to submit their entry. With that being said, we only ended up getting three entries, so we just want to congratulate everyone who submitted a poem. They really were amazing, and thank you all so…[Read more]
Okay! I like that idea! (it’s not just because I also submitted a poem)
I’m just going to put a few random quotes here from the internet, just… because why not, and I’m in a quote mood. Most of them probably aren’t going to have a label or anything telling who said them, so apologies in advance for that. It’s probably going to be a whole lot of different ones, I’m not sure… If you see this and want to comment a…[Read more]
And just a couple of my own attempted quotes, just because.
“I wish I had the words to say thank you, but what you have done for me is beyond words.”
“They say they’ll always be there, but I can’t help wondering when they won’t be.”
“I’m not negative- I just prefer to prepare for the worst so that I’m not as disappointed when it comes.”
“Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.“
What happens when I leave?
What happens when I become an adult?
What happens when I retire?
What happens when I die?
Will I even make it that long?
I hope so, I really do.
I have cried. Shed tears for myself, for others, for the world.
I have laughed. Laughed with my friends, sharing inside jokes and so much more.
I have smiled. Both real and fake smiles, with others and when I’ve felt so so alone.
I have fought. Fought for my own peace and fought with others and hurt the peace.
I have regretted. Regretted how I…[Read more]
Mom, this is… this is beautiful. This is beautiful, but it’s also heartbreaking. You are one of the most amazing people that I have ever had the privilege of knowing, and I will remember you forever. I am so, so, so sorry that you’ve ever felt this way, and I wish I could just take away all the hurt, all the pain, all the guilt, and everything,…[Read more]
Mer had the perfect words.
Leilei…. I too wish you hadn’t gone through all that. Wish you hadn’t had to feel the pain and anguish and sadness and hurt and sorrow. You are more than enough and I so wish I could show you just how amazing you are. You will always be more than enough. A sister, a friend, a companion. You. And you are an always for…[Read more]
Mom! You’re such an amazing person, even when I don’t know you irl. Cove and Mer said it all, but I’ll try too. I wish that you didn’t have to go through that, and it must’ve been really really hard. You are kind, loving, amazing, beaufiful (even though I didn’t see your face reveal), intelligent, and such an amazing spoe. I wish I was there for…[Read more]
Thank you guys. Thank you all so much. I’m close to crying right now just because your words mean a lot to me.
You guys are amazing, even if you don’t see it, trust me.
Thank you all.
Love you guys all, to the stars and beyond.
Love you Mom, and we’re always here for you, till the end of time <33
OH. LEILA. YOU ARE AMAZING. AND THAT WAS AMAZING. Amm always here if you need anything.
I’m a little bit scared of growing my nails out, to be honest.
I worry that it will make it too easy.
Sometimes the few things that draw me away from the knives, anything sharp really, is that they aren’t so easy to access.
I’m worried that with longer fingernails, that will go away.
Because then I can just scratch.
And it’ll do the job.
I can’t do it.
I can’t stay silent.
I can’t stay happy.
I can’t be the good girl.
I can’t be the one with the answers.
I’m falling apart.
It seems all I can do is scream.
Yes, I am a mess.
I’m not trying to deny that, or saying it isn’t true.
I am not secure.
I am not stable.
I have broken and screamed and sobbed…[Read more]
But even the simplest of things make everything so much harder.
A sentence can start my screaming.
A single thing can make me cry.
It’s so so hard.
I’m sorry for the outburst.
I’m sorry for drawing attention.
Maybe I should stay silent.
I would hurt less people that way.
I love you all.
I am so sorry.
Goodnight. I’m sorry for anything and everything I have done.
Don’t be sorry. You have done nothing, nothing, nothing wrong. You don’t have to do it. You don’t have to have answers. You don’t have to laugh or be stable or secure. You don’t have to be strong.
You can fall apart, break, shatter into a million pieces. You can fall, you can cry, you can be lost. I will always catch you. I will always help you.…[Read more]
*I hug you tightly*
The same goes for you, okay?
You can cry, you can break, you can shatter. I will be there. I will catch you. Even if I am broken myself, I will always catch you. I will help put you together, I will be there for you. I am here. Always and forever.
Thank you. Thank you so much- for everything.
I love you. To the stars and…[Read more]
Oh. That *****. You’re amazing. *heart emoji* (that I don’t know how to do)
You can cry. You can break. You can fall apart, a million times. More. However long we know each other, you will have me. Even if you’re shattered without leave, broken beyond reason. I won’t ever leave you. There’s a song which Gingy first shared with me… and now I want to give it to you. https://youtu.be/NJxmhng2V9s
Time after time, I will…[Read more]
The song is beautiful… Thank you so much, for sharing it with me, and for being here, and for everything else.
The same to you- if you are broken or shattered or falling apart or anything else, I will be here. No matter what. Time after time.
Love you so much, Kira <3
I am a ghost on the site.
No. Not a ghost.
That would indicate I have left.
And I have not left.
I am still here.
If only for you guys- my friends, my family.
I am not a ghost.
Not yet, at least.
I’m not sure when.
I will be a ghost at some point, I’m sure.
When I do not deserve a place on this site.
When I do not fit in.
I’m sure…[Read more]
You will always deserve this place. And it will always deserve you. You can fade to a ghost here, but not in my heart. Never will you fade in my heart nor my memory. Never.
That means… more than you know.
Love you <3
Ghosts are full of life. Did you know that? They may not truly live in the same world as the rest of us, but they live. You deserve here… and I just wish I had the words to comfort you as I should. Love you, through anything.