leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 2 months ago

    *I sit down on the floor in the middle room of my activity suite and tuck my knees under my chin. I’m still in my outfit from the welcoming party, which I never got much use out of in the first place*
    I didn’t expect this post to be like this, or at this time, or really even to exist at all.
    I never expected any of this. Never expected that I…[Read more]

        thecoven4ever replied 2 months ago

        Your messes are beautiful. Most of what you do is. I can’t remember if there ever was a time a post brought me to tears on this site. But this one did. You’re leaving. You leave with grace and kindness and no masks. You leave as I knew you; seeing and knowing and observing the small things no one else does. The girl who is the anchor, the sapling…[Read more]

        outdoorpoet replied 2 months ago

        I don’t know you very well. I don’t think you are a mess. You were and are, the best of us. You were the one who acted motherly and kind, complimented me, others, us all, with sweet writing in RPs, and things that made me smile. I don’t really know much, but I know that you were VERY special. You were someone we could all depend on. You were…[Read more]

        everneveracademy replied 1 month, 4 weeks ago

        I don’t know you as well as other people, and I wish we could have talked more.
        You have been so sweet to us, a role model in the site, and a person I would have loved from the start.
        I’m so sad that you have to leave. It hurts whenever someone leaves the site.
        You’re very unique, special, and everything else we could ask for…and you’ve always b…[Read more]

        cocostar replied 1 month, 4 weeks ago

        I saw this yesterday, and the time for me to comment is now.
        I am going to be honest. I don’t know you at all, however I have seen small glimpses of you, and from what I can tell, you’re a fun, kind, caring, intelligent person. And from the friendships I can see you’ve made on site, from the people whose hearts you’ve warmed, I can tell you are a…[Read more]

          shadesofevil replied 1 month, 3 weeks ago

          I came a tad bit too late, haven’t I?
          Nonetheless, perhaps you see this not, but I shall write.
          Ha, where am I even going to start? I love you, mum. During my time on the server, you were the every bit of justice and equal that I needed sometimes, the one person who would notice me when everyone else never did. You felt more like a mum to me than…[Read more]

        royalfudge replied 1 month, 3 weeks ago

        Leila, I am so glad to have had this time on here with you, and the time on our doc. I hope we stay sisters. I don’t really know what to say because we still talk frequently. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I love you, and I’ll miss you, and I’m so so grateful to have known you and to know you. Through everything, my sister <3

        asdfghjklabc replied 3 weeks, 6 days ago

        Leilei, my lovely sister.
        You’ve grown so much. When I knew you a year ago, things were different. The site was so different. You were so different. But you’ve changed in the best way possible.
        We’ve laughed. We’ve cried. We’ve confessed. If we could have shared one more conversation, one more laugh, one more cry, anything, I would have. I will…[Read more]

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    *I close my eyes and nod slowly, biting back a few tears*
    One last hurrah, I think.

        thecoven4ever replied 2 months, 2 weeks ago

        One last hurrah.

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months ago

    I might leave soon.
    I don’t know though, not sure yet.
    I don’t know how I would do so if I did, or how soon or even if I’m going to.
    *I sigh*
    (Ooh, It’s 11:11 as I’m writing this- just made a rather specific wish 🙂)
    I wish I knew for sure, it would make everything so much easier. But alas.
    I just… it’s gotten to the point where the site is lik…[Read more]

        beautifulsophie replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        Felt that firsthand. I also felt like everything was tiring me- I was writing fanfics, roleplays, skits, updating my club, updating another club, drawing fanart, reading through the series over and over again just so I could find more theories, and so much other things, all in one day. It eventually tired me to the point I was tired of the…[Read more]

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months ago

    Saturday, June 25th, 2020
    Hello Poet Gang! 😊
    Welcome to the third meeting!!
    Hope everybody is doing well!
    ~~
    Monthly Theme: ✨ Hope ✨
    With everything in the world right now, hope is such an important thing, so we thought it would be the perfect theme this month. Write a poem relating to hope in any way, shape, or form that you like, and make sure…[Read more]

        dotalltheway replied 3 months ago

        Eeeee yay! Will do. I’m pretty good, enjoying just relaxing. I’m doing a lot of online dance so that’s fun.

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

          It’s always nice just to be able to relax, honestly.
          Ooh online dance does sound fun! What type(s) of dance?

        raynaevil809 replied 3 months ago

        Yay! I’m NOT looking forward to school, though… and love the theme! 🙂

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

          Ah, yeah… Do you know if your school is doing online learning or in-person yet?
          I’m glad you like it!!

          raynaevil809 replied 3 months ago

          odd, because we just got an email! we’re doing offline, but no classes.. apparently w the vancouver school district thought it was a good idea to jam 60 students into a “learning group” so that’s legit half the school… um like what

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 2 months, 4 weeks ago

          Perfect timing XD
          Ahh yikessss
          I wish you the best of luck with that…

        beautifulsophie replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        oh wow i haven’t checked in for awhile- should work right away

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

          We’re glad to have you back and active again!!

        effie replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        This was a long time ago, but nobody really commented.

        tpurple replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        I know I’m way late to respond but I’ve been inactive in the Poet Gang but I have been writing some poems so I’ll share those in the doc! I’m great! I’ve been doing some yoga/pilates classes in the morning and there amazing!!
        I’m sort of looking forward to school in a few weeks but it will differently be different.
        umm… I have a goal that in…[Read more]

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months ago

    @effie
    Ahhh I tried to email you yesterday but it didn’t come through so I’m tagging you so late ahhhh
    Hi!!
    So sorry I’m saying this so late, I blanked out on things ahh
    Because you got Poet of the Month last month, would you like to do the closing remarks for this upcoming meeting (today!)? Doesn’t have to be much or anything, just… well, the…[Read more]

        leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

        Since you didn’t respond, I just wrote the closing remarks, I hope that’s okay…
        If you’d like to write them for another meeting, just let me know and I’ll make sure to get you a chance to do that since I ******* this up and was super late ahh

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

          *sc.rewed

        effie replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        It’s my school email, so that makes sense. Sorry I didn’t see this earlier, I’m not sure why. I just now found this while spoeing on you.
        I’ll write closing remarks sometime if you want, if the current poet of the month doesn’t want to.

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    Hollow. Empty. Numb. Burnt out. Gone. Tired. Exhausted. Mannequin. Lifeless. Without words. Trying. Failing. Done. Never. Goodbye. Sleep. Cage. Faded. Forced.
    So many words.
    Some of them come closer to describing it- well, me, I suppose, but ‘it’ seems better somehow right now.
    But none of them are quite right.
    So I continue to try my best to…[Read more]

        leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        *quite
        And even that correction isn’t correct. It’s not quite. It’s at all.

        thecoven4ever replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        It is the masks. The shadows. The veils. The cages. I’m so sorry you have to experience them. They are the invisible monsters which creep up on you, make every moment exhausting, every word unreal, ever experience detached, every person a ghost. Numbness, falling, hiring… I wish you didn’t have to experience this. I wish you could escape. And…[Read more]

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          *I hug you*
          And I will be here by your side as well, through everything. Always and forever, to the stars and beyond, my sister.

          thecoven4ever replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          *i hug you*
          Love you leilei

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    Ahahahahahahah *maniacal insane cackling fades slightly and I go into just speaking like an insane person*
    Ahah we love stress eating shredded cheese on chips, crackers, and then on absolutely nothing and by itself because we feel like **** and don’t want to go cry or yell again so we just sit here happily numb like we’re high on cheese! It’s the…[Read more]

        leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        Huh
        The censor mixed the two words and messed up the amount of letters
        Interesting interesting interesting
        I need a distraction but I don’t want a distraction what the **** am I doing
        And I’m swearing because I can’t bother censoring myself don’t want to bother because I’m a hot mess right now, if you couldn’t tell already!

        thecoven4ever replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        Take a deep breath and repeat after me
        “I, *insert name here* am amazing. I am a great friend and I have a good soul. I deserve to live and to thrive. I deserve to be happy.”
        All of those things are true. If you say them out loud, you can convince yourself of that.
        I love you so much, my sister. You are so strong. It’s ok to want to give up. It’s…[Read more]

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          Thank you so much, Thea. For everything. You’re amazing beyond words, and I love you so so much. Always and forever, my sister. <3

          thecoven4ever replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          Always and forever. To the stars, and beyond. I love you my sister

        effie replied 2 months, 3 weeks ago

        Oh. Wow. Umm . . . not sure what to say. What Cove said.

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    It’s odd. I’m hardly on the site anymore, really. Discord, docs, hangouts, yes, but not really actually on here. I post in my activity sometimes and check other people’s activities occasionally as well, but… beyond that, I hardly comment on things anymore. I don’t know why.
    There are posts in my mentions, things that I could and probably should…[Read more]

        ladyofthebooksge replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        *a spoe appears*
        It’s ok, I think we all do feel that way sometimes. I don’t think I’ve had that experience, but it seems pretty scary. Feel free to take breaks if you need to, we’ll be here for you <33
        Hope it wasn't awkward.. And I hope you have a great day!

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          *I wave to the spoe*
          Thanks, Lady, it means a lot. <3 (That's generally your site nickname, right? I hope it's okay to use that ack)

        ladyofthebooksge replied 3 months ago

        You’re welcome leilei! I’m fine with lady but feel free to call Jay if you feel uncomfortable <3

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

          Awesome, thank you!

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    Over 4000 points now!
    Woohoo one of the most exciting things on earth
    *note the sarcasm*
    Um anyways, hola spoes, how’s life going?

        bethmirror30 replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

        Congrats! Life’s good, wbu?

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          (Ooh, a new spoe to my activity! Welcome!)
          I’m glad life’s good, mine’s not too bad currently 🙂

        pinker13 replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

        Congratulations! Life’s great! Yours? (Yes, I am at summer camp. Well, technically, I will be tomorrow morning. So you won’t hear from me for a while. I’m just sneaking on the site. Just not on Discord or Google Docs…)

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          That’s great! Mine’s going okay currently, although summer and quarantine is rather boring for me XD
          (Ah, we’ll miss you on discord and the docs, I hope you have fun at summer camp!)

          pinker13 replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          Oof XD
          (Thanks! This time will be the last time you see me until after summer camp. Until then, see you later! Well, actually, it’s talk to you later!)

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          (Ah, we’ll miss you a ton while you’re there, have fun though!!)

        cutenesslily replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

        Congrats! Life s.ucks as a whole right now, but my personal life is good!

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          *huggles*
          I’m always here if you want to talk 🙂

        royalfudge replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

        *appluads*
        That is impressive, Leila. And hey- if you need to talk, I’m here.

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 3 weeks ago

          *I bow because bowing is fun*
          Thank you, Kira, and the same always goes for you. <3

        ladyofthebooksge replied 3 months, 1 week ago

        Congrats Leila! *throws sparkly confetti*
        Life is fine for me, the fact that school is starting in 3 weeks just blue over my head. It feels so surreal after all those days of quarantine…. (even if we’re going to do online class) how are you?

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months, 1 week ago

          Thanks! *I grab a handful of the confetti and throw it back at you because why not*
          Ahhhh I knowwww- my school’s been out of school for… let’s see, over 4 months now, it’s crazy that we’re actually going back, or even just doing online school.
          Surviving, a bit nervous for school though XD

        ladyofthebooksge replied 3 months ago

        *throws more glitter at you
        I know right? It feels so surreal that school would be back but it doesn’t feel like school at the same time.

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 3 months ago

          *smiles*
          Exactly ahh

    leilamofwoodsbeyond posted an update 4 months ago

    @blondieonfire @catsforlife @eloiseruizpalma @dotalltheway @teamjoanne @royalfudge @gris @ravenclawjedi @kittencaravalsge @thecoven4ever
    This is for you guys- the Sneaky Snek Smoothie Squad Snekafia.
    When I heard that the Snek friendversary was on (or at least somewhere around) June 25th, I wanted to do something, after all you guys have done for…[Read more]

        dotalltheway replied 4 months ago

        Which isn’t sane at all. Leila, this is so amazing and I can’t thank you enough. I’m so emotional rn loam, I love y’all so much. Even at our worst, we are always the beautiful, amazing SSSSS!!!

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          It was the least I could do for you guys. The beautiful, amazing SSSSS <3

        royalfudge replied 4 months ago

        Which isn’t sane at all.
        Leilei… I am actually without words. I… wow. Beautiful.

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          I knew that I wouldn’t have words either, so I figured I should just use everyone’s. I’m glad you liked it. <3

        ravenclawjedi replied 4 months ago

        Which isn’t sane at all. I love y’all.

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          Love you too, Maddie. <3

        blondieonfire replied 4 months ago

        WHICH ISN’T SANE AT ALL OH MY GOD I’M ABOUT TO CRY
        i love y’all so so so much <3

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          That was my intention hehe
          Love you guys <3

        eloiseruizpalma replied 4 months ago

        …Which isn’t sane at all! This is absolutely beautiful Leilei! Jimboob the sloth is my favouriteeeeee!! I love you all so muchh <33

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          Thank you, I’m really glad you liked it! I knew I had to include Jimboob the sloth hehe <3

        thecoven4ever replied 4 months ago

        Which isn’t sane at all. Oh my gosh Lauren. That was beautiful. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. And to all the sneaky snekks, I love you all more than words can express. To the stars, my sisters ❤️

          leilamofwoodsbeyond replied 4 months ago

          I’m glad you liked it, it was all I could do after everything you guys have done for me. To the stars <3

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